As Time Passes By...

Very sad now.... Sad things happened frequently. I don't even know why myself... Maybe life is just unfair or maybe life is short.... I've just been told of an extremely bad news... Rev. K. Sri Dharmananda passed away during the independence day....

I felt really sad over this.... Sad and regret... While people in kl were mourning over his loss, me an ignorant fool is enjoying herself.... Deck herself with happiness, with fun, with unnessesary etertainment. i don't even know why i'm soo sad about it. I mean it the serious way. I don't really know him. For me, he's just another monk... But some how, deep inside me i felt sad like he's always a good friend, someone i known for a long long time. He seems to have the happy face that always cheers people up. I always felt happy when i saw his delicate face. All my sorrows just fades away. Tears just flow from my eyes when i heard that he's gone. i cried in the arms of my love... i cried in the arms of God... I pray for him to go to heaven even though it is impossible as my love say only good christians go to heavan. Still, i made this silent prayer that he'll be with God... Foolish of me right?

He always seems to understand.... Which makes me imagine what would he say if i told him i want to be a christian. Unlike my mom or other family member who will say NO, he would probably ask me to follow my heart. To go for any religion as long as i do good.... as long as i have a pure mind... he would give me his blessings.

To know that someone as pure as him to be gone is a great lost to humankind... He served humanity for all his life... He helped coountless people, give happiness to all... and now once and for all the world will have to go on without him... From now on, i won't be able to see his smiling face, to see his radient skin...

Still deep in my heart i'm not willing to let him go... A great man with great compassion....